...tis is gettin more n more deadly...lao sai since dunno when..i oso miss count of e days..i can onli sae its 10+ days since i have my diarrhoea....wa lan..it certainly bu hao shou...i found myself kan stubborn sia...everyone ask mi go see doctor but i don wan! haax..i dunno y...im so reluctant to go tis time? mayb something is tellin mi not to go so tat i wont find out tt i have certain illness rather than diarrhoea? mayb ba...arbo i dunno y im so reluctant to go...but..i do hate doctors...hahax....i oso see them to take fake MC n i pretend tat im sick...i rarely go to the doc. wen im reali sick...hmmm...tats y...if tml u see on e papers or news...tat some 1 die becos of diarrhoea...remb to call mi n ask if its me...hahax...but choy la...i don wan die yet...so much things not done...i wan get married....give baby...treat my mama good good wen i grow up...hahax....k la...its 4+ in e morning now n i stil cant slep...die la...i tink i reali shi mian le...lolx...jus cant fall into slep...onli wen e sun come out den im willing to slep...sound lik vampire hor...how i wish i am 1...lolx...k la...no new updates for gals in my life...cos there's none! and...i found out something...u good brothers..u called them "buddies" can oso not jio u out...n go out themself...=)...wat ever it is...i hope..i had reali found my true friends....my brothers for life...MaChI...B.C. ....WaN sUi WaN sUi WaN wAn sUi...take care ppl...thx for supporting...

....diarrhoea is killing me!!!!!!!!!!!!!!arrr..boredom is killin me as well! some1 kindly visit mi pls...hahahx

...hmmm...played 7 hours of mahjong to kill my boredom..hahax...i started playin at 6pm n it ended at 1+...4 rounds...wa...tired tired..but it did paid off...cos i won $40...but it oso sae tat my saturday jus gone lik tis! hahhax...there goes 1 if my day...hmmm...recently had been reali boring..nth to do...but nvm...sch reopening soon...i can get to know new classmates..ahhax...mayb even e key to my heart! hahahax...hmmm...life is unfair...ppl can enjoy so much...had so many guys ard..but mi cannot..ta ma de...so unfair...hahax...i wan i wan! i wan to be wif alot alot of gals..hahax...kiddin la...i hate those guys wif alot gals ard...cos it makes them look sissy...hahax..i wan 1 enuff...1 tat wil accompany mi to anywhere...1 who wil live wif mi 1 who wil love mi n i love her...hahax...tats enuff...1+1+1=3..lik tat i must find 3 liao..hahax...kiddin la..hao la...now waiting for game jiu go play le...n AnN yI!! don jus see my blog! tag PLS! hgahax...missu ppl...take care...im a new person now! i had reali change..no more care n concern.."U" wil jus see e dark side of mi...

....happy 18th birthday to my brother whom i noe sinc kindergarden!! hahax...happy birthday! sweet 18! LIM JIA WANG WATSON!!btw..its 25th march 2006 now...i dunno y i cant change e date! ...hahax....gettin on wif life....im trying to live my life to my fullest...tryin to get forward! i hope "SHE" appear soon....so much things i needa to do! from now..e old JOSEPH IS DEAD!!! now...its a new me! so pls...don find me awkward if u found tat i have changed! tak care ppl! and thx ah ling for my music in my blog! hahahaha...thanx....take care ppl...see u guys here soon!

...hahax...another 1 done by mi! im sooooo happy...felt a sense of acheivement sia...lolx..hmmm can u guys teach mi how to put song ma? pls...lolx...or any1 wan help mi put tell mi k....hmmm...k la..i have been having diarrhoea for e past 7 days le lehx...dunno y..knn...mayb dying soon...so now clear all rubbish inside mi so tat i wont stink wen i die...hahax...k lal...shall blog later...take care ppl..

....its agn..4 + in e morning...hahax...today nth much ba...went town..in search for my xing fu...but to no avail...lolx...hmmm..but no matter wat...i know...its fated de..wen heaven wanna gif u..it will...hmmm..today..aft town....went to cc play bball....saw her...yup...wellnth much....u noe..guys have 6th sense too...e way she tok to mi is jus so different ba...she don even sae bye to mi...how sad can it get yea? wen tat guy stand beside mi...she don even dare to tok to mi..haix....i uds how it feels ba...last time wen she stead wif tat guy...went i walk past her shop...also e same feeling...so i donn feel anything....i noe i shouldnt voice it out to her...but i reali bu gan yuan...y? y she must lik tat....hmmm...but nvm..i apologise to her for voicing out....so now..i shall blog it out...so tat i don offend her in a way tat i get it str8 into her...suan le...don tok abt her le...trust mi ppl...im trying hard to forget things n move on wif my life...i noe i will succeed! yes..i will...yup...the past 10 odd days has reali been chaotic....so much up n down for mi....hmmm...later wen i wake up...i promise a new mi...no more sad over her..no more jealousy...i wil jus take it as i jus see another couple in front of mi.... =) yes i will...n i got a secret i long wanna tell..hahax...hey ppl...im alr engage...heex...in 5 years time...im goin to have a LAOPO! heex...she is EILEEN ZHUANG QI LING! hahahax...she promise to married mi long time ago...but i always nv tell u all...heex...so now...we gif each other freedom to play...haha...5 years later...den get married n settle down...hahax...hao la...tis kind of things v difficult to sae de la...mayb 3 years later she get married le...den wat to do? i sad lo..haax...hmmmm....anyway...i stil hope to find e right gal tat i long wanted...ang mohs! i damn lik ang mohs...i dunno y..hahahx...i see them i wil jus daze n start having those fairytales thoughts le..haha...i dunno y...how i hope i got a ang moh gf..lolx...but guys....do look out for my friendster...cos i promise..if i reali find another gal...i wil str8 away post our pic in friendster...heex....i gurantee u all will be jealous of mi..hahax..guys wil be jealous of me n girls wil be jealous of her...cos where e hell she's so lucky to stead wif joseph...and they jus so loving!...hehex...hahahax...kiddin la...i sound so BHB...hahaax..bleahx...watever it is...tis is my blog! n my close friends read it....u guys wil uds me yea? heex...e rest who don lik mi...who gif a fuck care to them rite?if u don lik me...don come to my blog den! kindly get a life n fuck off! fierce anot? lolx...hao la...oso tink wont have ppl don lik mi come read 1 la...lolx..i oso nv tell ppl my link le...those who stil read my blog de are all regular customers hor? hahax...enuff of crapping...goin to slp aft my tis stick of ciggy....take care alright...n thanx u guys for supportin til now! i APPRECIATE IT! heex...but wait...guys...got job must intro mi alright! i reali need a job! if not..i wil be bored to death! lolx...bye guys...remb e word....CHERISH! N I MEAN CHERISH E ONE IN FRONT OF U....

...yes...as i promise...today wil be much better than yest...i wil make it...i smile wen i wake up...=) cos i find out...its reali no point sobbin anymore....wat i get r jus sacastic words from ..... so...no point yea? heex...alright...im goin town to find my xing fu alr...hahax....anything...jus call mi alright...take care guys! thanx for supporting my blog...heex...i love u guys..

..its 4.30 in the morning..yet..i cant slep...jus finish doin wif all e links...ah ling...gif mi ur link....cos i lost it...n sis..if u r stil readin my blog....gif mi ur link too....hmmm...so much for mi to tink tonight...y?haix...im so boring...everyday wake up...no ppl msg...my phone don ring for e whole day...except for my mum's call...haix...m i reali tat lonely?...guys...ask mi out! cos im reali damn free!! and y? y i gotta hear those stuff tat i don wanna hear? i tout i could avoid..but...it jus happen so coincidence tat someone wil jus tell mi into my ears...i don care...i don wanna fucking care...but y am i so misery? haix..fuck! i wanna slp...i jus wanna slp...i don wanna tink anymore...i don care if u guys been to have couple dates...couple movie...went to watch superstar n sit beside him....or watever it is...i don wann know!i don wanna care! argG...pls ppl...stop tellin mi stuff abt wat had happened btw them...i don wanna noe...i reali don...sometimes...its someting i rather not noe than knowing! arRGG...hai....trying to put up a fake smile everyday is reali tiring..i swear its tiring...but all i need is time...i cant be sobbing alone wen so many ppls actually do care for mi...thanx guys...thanx for being there...u guys r right...she's out there enjoying herself wif another guy...y would i stil bother to be so sad n stil care so much? haix...i jus niid time..i niid time...guys..trust me...i jus niid time to clear everything...bu yao zai xiang ni...bu yao zai ai ni...rang shi jian qiao qiao de mo qu...wo men liang ke de hui yi....take care...guys...believe mi...im gotta be strong.! and i wil...smile..tml wil be a much more better day than today!

..hahahax....tis is e first time i do my own blog skin! hahhaha....for almost 4 years? i tink tis blog had been 4 years le ba...hahahax...or 3? for e first time u noe...i make my own blogskin! so happy...i spend quite alot of time doin tis...lolx...hmmm...nice nice..im statisficed...hmmm...btw...i dunno how to cre8 links...someone help mi pls...show example ok...don sae sae sae...i jus follow example...lolx...hmmm...dunno y...ownself make tis blog i so happy..lolx...hmmm...however..regarding me...i tink abt it clear enuff le ba...since u got another guy le...lets stop all those misses n caring msg/calls ba...either 1 of us nid to sacrifice isnt it? if not it wil be lik wat others said...keep on draggin n draggin...hmmm....jus wanna let u know b4 i leave it all behind...i cried wen i lost u...i miss u wen i lost u...there's so much i need to tell u...so much things left undone...so much wishes unfulfill...and so much loves i had for u....im sorry...for e last time we patch up...i noe i din gif my best...i chose to play on e same side...so i don get hurt...i noe im selfish...im sorry...but u can be so close to a new guy so fast...tat reali makes mi wonder now...is my move right or wrong..don tel mi all ur excuses of u don wanna miss mi so u so close wif him...don tel mi u don feel appreciated tats y u r so close wif him..tat only make mi doubt your love for mi...does being close to someone else helps? does it help by calling him cutiepie? buyin him little gifts?is tis wat u call u only using him to forget mi?watever it is...i don have e right to care anymore...nevertheless...on e other hand...we had too much misunderstandins...too much miscommunications...too much hurts...too much betrays...too much for mi to hard to believe u anymore...thus...1 person gettin hurt is much more better off than 2 or even 3 ppl get hurt yea?...sorry if i reali hurts u...but..the things u did on DECEMBER 9..and MARCH 18...is enuff for me to repay e hurt u gave...i apologised...don u tink u owe mi an apology too?...thx for loving me...til den..u r e best tat i ever had... =) ..take good care of urself..cos..i wouldnt be there anymore...not now..not months later..perhaps...years later ba...all e best to u...and best wishes to e both of u... i wish..he's the one u r looking for...he wil be the one understand u..and e one who wil be there for u wen u need him..and appreciate u..wo zhen xin de zhu fu ni men...zhu ni men yong yuan kuai le.. =)...


with love,
..joseph..

...hmmmm....jus wanna sae...in tis world...humans are e weirdest of all yea?...hmmm...sometimes...u tink tat u know tat person well...but...tink agn...something happened...and overnight....e person would change into another person which u felt tat u r so mo sheng to him/her....e things he/she said e previous night...seem to be opposite now..nth is feelin right...nth is on e right track...u start to think...do i reali noe him/her tat well? is he/her the one tat i noe?yup...tats human...u tink tat u know him/her VERY well...but actually...we r only Zui ShOu Xi dE mO sHeNg reN....the most fAmiLiEr sTrAnGer....things could jus change overnight...feeling could jus fade and he/she would jus fall in love wif other ppl tat fast tat u can imagine...a word of advice to all my friends...CHERISH....cherish e one tats wif u now...cherish e one tat u love....cos if something goes wrong....there wil be a cut in e heart...and things would jus turn so wrong...e cut wil always be there and there wil always be a scar which u cant erase....so...don ever dui bu qi your love one...cos e most hurtful person is e one u hurt-ed who live a scar in ur heart which u wil nv forget him/her...its a scar tat stays for life...yup..as for myself..upon failling so many times....i found myself gettin stronger n stronger....yi chi bi yi chi de jian qiang....but...everytime wen i had broke up...im always defeated by her....everytime wen i time she's gonna be e one...it wil nv be...and everytime..they jus seem to have another guy tat soon...zhen de...mei yi chi he ni fen kai...wo sheng sheng de bei ni ta bai....im letting my heart to sleep....awaitng for e right 1 to wake it up...n i noe....there wil be one out there....who's waiting for mi to wake her heart up too....i promise...i wil be a good bf for e next relatioship...no more laziness...no more being stubborn and no more OF MY BAD TEMPER! i PROMISE...i wil treat "YOU" who gonna be the "YOU"...i promise...u wouldnt regret fallin in love wif me.... take care guys...im off... :)..cheers...

...yuan lai..yi ge ren du zhi de ku qi...shi duo meh de ji mo...duo mo de qi liang....haix....in tis world...its just so weird...so different....liang ge ren...ming ming xiang ai...but...cant be tgt...but..there r couples who don love each other....its jus so weird n fucking feeling! argh..! hao xin ku..my knee n my chest hurt lik hell! arr!! can some1 wake up my soul? i tink im lost...im sadden..im hurt-ted...im jus a failure....jus a failure in love..in studies...in bball...y? hai...there's nth i can beat any1..found out...im actually very lonely...hahax...tis few days...its jus so..hmmm..lonesome? went play bball alone...wen there's so many ppl tat r so close yet so far...went back home alone...eat alone...and many more...im jus down...don ask mi why..btw..i jus came back from hongkong....shall update my life over there soon...til den..i til i shld get my fuckin body to bed b4 i reali PENG KUI...No mOrE tEArS...i pROmIsE...and i start to lik e song sang by i forgot who...e song goes lik tis... ni nah meh ai ta...wei se meh bu ba ta liu xia? wei se meh bu shuo zhen xin hua...its a nice song...trust mi...don listen to it wen u r sad..tears wil jus flow.....hao la..take care guys....