..its time to go back to sch tml~!n work n earn my own living....smile...n pass each day....

...im sorry...i do changed...but there r things tat im still v sensitive about...sigh...i can never be a better person no matter how hard i tried...i noe im a failure...a failure in everything i do...sigh.....i jus need something to vent...im sorry for tis post..ARGH~! sigh...ppl...can u pls teach me...teach me how to be a better person hao ma....im nv good enuff..nv satisfied...haix....GOD AR....can u pls don play ard wif me....pls...if u wan...pls...make me be stronger...y am i turning so sissy? so weak...where's e old act fit joseph? where's e nv easily gif up de joseph goei? y must my life have so many ups n downs....EVERYTHING!@ ....MY FAMILY...those who noe me...shld noe wat happen...my studies...i never soar in academic...my basketball life...my love life...my brothers....so many so many things happen to me...y must it be me? sigh...sigh.....i gif up..i rr gif up...i ren ming...wo zhen de ren ming...GOD~!....PLS STOP MAKING FUN OF ME~!sigh....

...hmmm...sometimes...i v it weird wen ppl keep changing their URL...hmm...or am i e weird 1? to always keep tis URL? but i had been using this since dunno wen lo..haa....so many history...so many past updates..a little secret which i din wan many to noe...hahaha.all can be seen here...but i don mind la...tats all my past...wen i created tis blog...wat i wish was to have a online diary...so tat wen i grow old...i can open e link n view my life wen i was young...mayb..i can also use tis to tell stories to my kids...no matter how sad it is or how high or defiant their father was wen i was young...haha...u guys might tink tat i tink too far...but tink agn...isnt my words make sense? ppl can be rr forgetful at times yea? haha...well...anyway...i still tink tat choosing a URL tat will be for v long is better than u keep changing it...imagine today u wif someone...den ur URL wil be..LOVE WHOEVER.blogspot.com...den aft tat change gf/bf...den have to change URL agn..hahaha...isnt tat quite....i dunno...mayb e word....weird? i dunno la..i jus find tat keeping e constant URL is still e best...alright ppl...im not pin pointing at anyone hor...jus sui bian sae sae onli..cos i suddenly have e feeling of blogging aft such a long time...haha....tis might be a v long entry...click e X button if u r bored alright..lolx...

....well...i see quite alot blogs have e pic of their loves one...mayb i shld put me n her hor...for ppl who noe me..u shld noe who im referring to...my BOR~! hahha...hmmmm..but...i forgot how to use photobucket le...hahahahhaha....any1 wanna teach me agn? anw...i personally feel tat i have change quite alot compared to e past huh? if u noe me well...u will agree wif wat i said too....its lik e bonds btw me n my brothers is not that strong anymore...n im not so "STEADY" now...i dunno y...mayb lik wat my mum always tell me..."ni ze yang jiang yi qi zuo mo, you yong meh? ni you shi...ni confirm ta men yi ding hui xiang ni ze yang ma? yi qi zi duo shao qian?"translate...u so steady for wat...got use mehx? if u got problem...u confirm everyone wil be lik u?steadiness worth how much? hmmm..im direct translating...so..if u don uds..don blame me...so...mayb im being influence by her words ba...or mayb..i big le..noe how to tink le..or mayb...is e case tat makes me a rather afraid of being so steady...yup...BUT~! BUT...if any of my bro needs help...im sure..everyone wil noe..i will never sae NO..unless its not within my limits...yeap..hmmm...another things is i tink i changed quite alot is my attitude ba...i can sae my temper had reali decrease alot alot alot lo...im not so hot tempered now...im serious...gif u all an example...i din make any noise or retaliate wen my bor slap / shout at me in front of all my brothers...those who noe me...u shld noe wen u do tat to me...its spells TROUBLE WITH ME~!...but i reali din do anything....tis is a v good example tat my temper has change...another thing is tat im not so sensitive abt things le ba i guess...i don mind my bor to msg other ppl...IN FRONT of me...go out wif other guys...i don mind her giving number to others even i felt abit uneasy still..but i don rr mind...mayb its e previous 2 tat run away tat makes me feel tat...well...if its mine...it wil be...or mayb...im too confident of myself...haha...so..i don reali worry anything now...wats most impt is e two of us tgt happy..tats all i ask fer...i started to have a new look in life also...i used to be quite "STINGY" i would sae wen it comes to buying stuffs for myself...but now...i don reali mind buying tis n tat...cos i tink..$ can be earn back de wat..wats more impt is i lik..n i buy...no nid tink too much...so yeap...i got wat i wanted..n im happy with it...n ppl...tell u all 1 secret...I GOT A GENUINE LOUIS VUITTON WALLET~! shhh....don WOW...hahaha...its a gift from my sis...i got e receipt okie...don believe ask for it n i wil show u..haha...its not im showing off or wat...but jus thankful tat i got it at e age of 18...thanks sis~!
...haha...alright...enuf of tis...hmmmm....anw...im jus a changed person now i guess...n i can prove tat im a changed person...okie..gotta go...update soon...

...wooohooo...i'm here~...hmmm....KOREA was quite okie for me...as wen i was there...it was their thanks giving day...some sort of their biggest holiday...so alot of shops were close tat period of time...sigh...so...I DON GET MY SHOPPING~! even tho i shop for all e days...but almost all shops were close...so there's nth much fer me to buy~! n i spend $640 sing dollar spending on nth~! i dunno how come i spend so much wen i din buy much things..fuck~! anw...i enjoyed e company there...it was reali fun having u guys...thx for helping me celebrate my 18th bdae!@ thx alot~!well....anything u all wanna noe abt KOREA call me k...takecare ppl..i goin to slep le...nitex....

...im back~...hahahha...shall update abt KOREA Soon....

....hmmmm...in another more 19 hours+....i will be boarding e plane to korea...hmmm...well...shall blog wen i come back k...take care alright ppl....take good care of urselfs..esp my brothers...my family n U~! NXW~!

P.S....don forget our promises alright baby....pls take good care of urself...i will be back soon...wait for me to bring u go chiong...wait for me to go take my liscence n fetch u alright...muackx....i love you...